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And you
Reel me in again
With words designed
To induce pity and incite forgiveness
You use my affection
Against me


Heartsick
I succumb
To subtle seduction
Knowing I will leave feeling
Used; my self-respect degraded
In increments


The neglect begins
When you chose to forgo
The common courtesies
Like goodbye
And later
Hello


The last person to ask if
I was really doing ok
Lives continents
And time-zones
Out-of-sync
Yet
Attuned


But You
A mere mile away
Can’t read the resonance
You created with your [presence/absence]
You
Distort the field of energy
Feeding on negativity
Exacerbating
An       already       heavy       burden


Like magnets
We attract each other
Creating a gravity I can’t escape
And.I.am.broken.by.it.


You'd never hurt me
Without consent,
But when
Did I give you permission
To bruise my heart?


Still


It is nothing
      nothing
      nothing
Like the suffering I see around me so
I brush it off and make your excuses
Defend you from concerned acquaintances
"I’m fine" (deep breaths) and smile emojis
Are all it takes to cover the chasm


I am masquerading as an
Independent “Woman”
But I feel more like an
Insignificant/Other
Diminished by the fact
That I could easily be replaced
By a housemaid and internet porn
There is
            Nothing
Special
About me
Other than perhaps
I have more loneliness to offset
Even than you
And I have never been able
To walk away from a lost cause
It is not
In my nature to
Give up on people




Except
Myself
I wrote some stuff. Justification of words might not come out right for this upload so it's just a test.
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DynamiteDanDMan's avatar
I like it, makes me wonder who the person who lives continents away is, a person the main character is interested in, or just a friend. Seems like their would be interest if there wasn't distance. Also the giving up on self, i wonder if its is emotionally depressed, a kind of despair. Or is it more of a giving up on their ability to just once and for all dump the person who has a hold on them.